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Part 1 - The Grieving (Click to go to Part 2, Part 3)
Willie Monahan dropped dead in the Hollow Leg Saloon. It was five years ago
in the middle of the third quarter of the Pittsburgh Steelers, New York
Giants football game. He died with a glass of bourbon in his hand and there
are some who say he drank it off before his passing.
He went the way he wanted to go -- in the friendly atmosphere of Clancy's
place and the warm conviviality of his companions. His wife Lily, and his
grown daughter, were at home watching the Monday Night Movie and were spared
the melodrama of his final moment. We, at the bar, were not.
His final moment was theatrical. Just as the Giant quarterback was sacked,
Willie raised his bourbon as though to drink. Instead, he slipped backwards
off his stool, held his bourbon high and placed his left hand on his chest.
We thought he might break into song, for the pose was similar to that of an
Italian opera tenor. Some of us thought he might propose a toast to the
Pittsburgh tackle for sacking the quarterback, and others thought they might
enjoy one of Willie's rare attacks of largess and be stood a round of drinks,
for it was not long until Thanksgivings Day.
It was, in fact none of these things. Willie was already dead -- though still
on his feet. We watched him with anticipation, and as we did, he sidled to
his right still holding his glass high. The toilet was in that direction, and
it seemed plausible to assume he was headed that way. His face revealed
neither pain nor anguish, but there was a puzzlement upon it as though some
one had asked him a question to which he had no answer.
His path brought him quite close to Lotte. Lotte resorted to a jigger of gin
occasionally to ease her chronic back pains. She had no interest in football,
as we did, but some of us maintained she had the hots for Clancy. Lotte was
an unpredictable person -- she could be volatile, and she carried a cane. "It
was a cane me Grandfather carried," she would often say. She would display
its horse's head handle and warn us that the first turkey who tried to get
smart with her would bear its imprint "up the side of his head."
As Willie sidled within range of Lotte, she put her glass down and reached
for her cane. She lashed out at him vainly as he fell at her feet. Had she
connected she may well have blamed herself for Willie's demise, for at heart
she was a gentlewoman, and would not have clubbed a dying man. All of us, by
now, suspected something was seriously wrong with Willie.
Our attention was equally divided between his curious behavior and the
football game but two or three of us went to his side.
"Look, he's still holdin' his glass."
"Who's 'e starin' at?"
"Can y'tell if e's breathin'?"
"Why'nt we try sittin' 'im up."
So, we tried sitting him up and Bob Hollister tried to get the glass out of
his hand.
"He ain't lettin' that go," says Bob, "Feel of his wrist, see if y'can get a
pulse."
None of us knew where to feel for a pulse. One of us felt the side of his
neck for a pulse but quickly shrugged his shoulders.
Then Helmsley walked over to the bar and told Clancy he'd better call 911.
Clancy tipped his derby to the back of his head and put his cigar down. He
gave the information to the night operator and told him it was Willie
Monahan. Willie was a regular in emergency for various bar related accidents
and had been a frequent week-end visitor to the hospital. None of Willie's
previous problems had required immediate attention, and this may well have
been the reason why the ambulance didn't arrive at the Hollow Leg Saloon
until the middle of the fourth period.
Just before the ambulance arrived, somebody realized that no one had called
Willie's wife, and it was pointed out to me that since I had been sitting
next to Willie, it was my place to do it. I couldn't follow the logic, but I
turned and looked at Willie and thought, -- well, if it had been me, wouldn't
my wife want to know? Clancy was a first class bartender and kept all our
telephone numbers in a little black book behind the bar under the salted
peanuts. Time and again he would find it necessary to call someone to come
and get us if we were unable get home alone. He dialed Mrs. Monahan for me
and handed me the phone.
"Hello"
"Mrs. Monahan?"
"No, this is Sally . . . Ma! somebody on the phone."
"Hello"
The stage was set for me to break the news. I took a deep breath and cast a
final look at Willie with his back to the wall.
"Mrs. Monahan I'm calling from the bar downtown, you know, the Hollow Leg?
I'm afraid Willies' took a spell down here. We've called emergency and they
should be here any minute."
"Is he drunk?"
"Oh no. Nothing like that. He's fainted, and we thought you oughta know,
that's all."
"Well I ain't comin' down to no bar. I'll meet him at emergency."
"Okay, Mrs. Monahan. It'll be St. Stephens -- that's what 911 told us."
What she lacked in solicitude, she made up for in experience. She had spent
many a tiresome week-end waiting for Willie to be released from emergency
after being patched, pumped or splinted. She was like the farmer who refused
to answer the call of the little boy who cried wolf for the third time.
The ambulance arrived midway through the fourth quarter and by that time we
had thrown his coat over him. Some of the customers had left, stepping over
Willie's outstretched legs as they made for the door. The medics quickly
determined that Willie was no longer with us in substance and there was no
hurry to get him to the hospital. I told them that his wife would be waiting
there.
"I ain't tellin' her, that's not my job. I'll radio the desk, they can get a
priest . . . he was Irish, huh?"
I wondered how Mrs. Monahan would take the news, would she be inconsolable?
Contrite? Calm, more than likely, as though she knew it would come some day.
Willie left in a heavy plastic bag still clutching his bourbon glass. It
seemed fitting he should take it with him. No one was able to take it from
him while he was alive.
Willie's funeral was set for Friday. There was room for him in the plot his
mother bought many years ago, and that was where Lillie wanted to put him;
down there with his mother and father. She said he'd be better off with them
than in an empty grave of his own. Her reasons went deeper than that. Willie
Monahan was a drinker like his father before him and his mother could bend an
elbow with the best of them. It meant, of course, that when Lillie's time
came she would not lie in the same patch of earth as Willie.
Lillie wanted no part of Willie after death, and she felt no guilt because of
it. She took a vow for better or worse, but only until death. There was no
talk of an extension to the contract. Willie would have to take care of
himself from then on. Looking back on it now, he wasn't much of a husband --
and if you looked around the Hollow Leg Saloon the night of his passing,
there wasn't much you could say for the rest of us either.
O'Dell picked him up at the hospital on Tuesday morning. The bathroom window
in my apartment overlooks O'Dell's parking lot and I noticed his black van by
the receiving door. As much as possible, O'Dell tries to be discreet, but
some things are unavoidable. He has a three sided canopy by his receiving
door, and if you're curious, you can see who or what goes in and out. Under
my breath, I said "good morning" to Willie, noting with due penitence the
heady aroma of my alcoholic mouth wash.
I've heard it called, "the curse of the grape," and few Irishmen escape its
clutches. It is our national pride, and our national shame. It has loosened
the tongues of orators and the pens of poets. Well, Willie was not a poet,
but he had a way of saying things that made you think he was; and in the end,
isn't that what poetry is all about?
With the wake a day away, I found myself thinking about Willie Monahan. I
know, if he wanted, he could have been the same person at home, as he was
with us at the Hollow Leg Saloon. There, he was affable, friendly and eager
to please -- you could rarely raise his dander. I suspect he was not like
this at home.
He had the pinkest skin and the whitest hair and the bluest eyes of any man
I'd ever seen. He looked like you'd expect the president of Aer Lingus to
look. "The drink," they say, "It's the drink that makes them pink." But I
like to think Willie would have been pink without it.
I suppose you've been to wakes. You see one wake, you've seen 'em all -- at
least that's the way I feel about it. It's like seeing "Hamlet" every week
with a new cast, the words are always the same but the people are different.
Lotte tottered in wearing black -- "I'm very sorry for your loss, Mrs.
Monahan." Then she smiled to reveal her two remaining bicuspids and tapped,
tapped her way to a corner seat. She sat there holding her horse's head cane
across her bony knees. It was only a day or two ago she tried to brain Willie
with it as he collapsed in front of her.
Tim Clancy, the bartender, used the identical words when he paid his re
spects, and so did Bob Hollister. It sounded as though we all got together
and rehearsed it. I found myself thinking of something else to say when it
came my turn.
"He was a great guy, Mrs. Monahan, we'll all miss him." As soon as the words
were out of my mouth, I knew I'd made a mistake. She knew who his friends
were, each and every one of them. If it hadn't been for his friends Willie
might not be stretched out there . . . and been a better husband to boot.
She said this with her eyes as she looked at me, and I wished I had taken the
safe way out and said what the others said.
Father Stanley walked in. "I'm very sorry for your loss, Mrs. Monahan." (He
wasn't taking any chances.) He looked much smaller without his Sunday robes .
. . it's difficult for a priest to achieve stature in a Sears and Roebuck
suit.
His homily was a fanciful description of where Willie was going and how he'd
get there. He went on to say we would all be together again some day, and
explained how Willie had sailed from this shore to another, more distant
shore and how Willie would be waiting for us to sail after him. It might have
been more effective had we been seafaring people.
Lillie and her daughter Sally were dry-eyed throughout the evening.
Occasionally Lillie would escort a guest to the casket and look at her
husband as though he were a stranger. Guests who attempted to comfort her
soon realized it was unnecessary. Thirty years with Willie had not yet made
her an old woman, she had garnered many a whistle from the boys at the bar as
she walked by the Hollow Leg Saloon. As soon as Sally could be induced to
leave home, Lillie, with a little luck might start afresh.
I stopped in to see Willie the next morning before the laying in. I wanted to
see him alone for a minute. After all, I was the one sitting next to him that
Monday night. He didn't get to see the end of the football game and we had a
bet going. Willie had given me a point spread on Pittsburgh and I didn't make
it. I could have forgotten all about it I suppose, but I knew Willie
wouldn't, and a bet's a bet.
I called O'Dell over.
"Charlie," I said, "is there anything wrong with putting a five dollar bill
down in the bottom of the coffin? We had a bet going that night and Willie
won -- I owe him."
"That's okay," said O'Dell, "nobody's ever gonna know. I got something I
wanna show you anyhow."
We were alone there in the grieving parlor, so O'Dell opened the bottom part
of the lid. Willie wasn't wearing shoes or socks; no need for shoes and socks
where he was going. Between Willie's pink feet lay the bourbon glass. Tears
sprang to my eyes immediately.
"That was damn thoughtful of you, Charlie"
"It was in his bag of belongings when I picked him up at the hospital. I knew
Lillie would throw it out, and who can tell . . . ".
O'Dell took my five dollars, folded it four times and stuffed it in the
bourbon glass. "There," he smiled, "if it's a cash bar, Willie, you're all
set."
Part 2 - The Layin' In (Click to go to Part 1, Part 3)
There were six of us from the Hollow Leg Saloon and we all wanted to go to
Willie’s funeral so we hired a town car for ourselves. There was Lotte of
course, up with the driver, Clancy to my right, Bob Hollister to my left, and
me in the middle. Charlie Spivak and Ed Donahue sat on the jump seats facing
us.
Lillie wanted no part of it. "A quick and a quiet funeral," she said. Just
the hearse and one car for her, her daughter Sally, and Father Stan. O’Dell
said he would ride in the hearse with the flowers. Lillie told us she and
Willie had a big wedding, "That was enough." she said, (with a good deal of
emphasis). She didn’t want to finish it off with a big funeral. She and
Willie were not on the best of terms to begin with and there was no question
in her mind that his drinking companions were largely to blame.
But friends are friends, and when you get down to drinking friends like
Willie and we were, there are none more staunch and true -- you want to be
together until the very end of it -- and even a little thereafter if you can
work it. So in the face of Lillie’s displeasure, we hired a town car to trail
after the cortege. When it showed up at the church we were surprised to find
it was white with gold door handles and grill, a vehicle more suited to
weddings and prom parties! It was too late to make a fuss, the cortege was
about to take off and the important thing was to be with Willie at the layin’
in. He was to be laid to rest between his mother and father, buried there
some twenty years before him on this windy hill in Greenlawn Cemetery.
"The Monahan’s was big drinkers too," Lotte said.
"Makes good company in the hereafter." Bob Hollister said. "I’d be fair
displeased to spend eternity between teetotalers."
"Why don’t we make a pact then," Clancy suggested "to all be buried together."
"I’m a lady," Lotte said, "I sleep alone."
The banter went on like this all the way to the cemetery. We opened the bar
in the back of the front seat of the limo, and found it empty. "Hell of a
note," I commented to Benito our driver, a swarthy Italian with blue black
jowls who smelled of cigarettes.
"Y’didn’t contract for no bar. Besides it’s a funeral -- y’don’t drink on the
way to a cemetery." Nevertheless, we all agreed it was inhuman to provide an
empty bar in the back of a limo, regardless of the occasion.
"I don’t think I been in this part of town before," said Charlie Spivak,
changing the subject. "This is Queens, ain’t it?"
The driver told us we were in Flushing, "Look real quick to your left at the
next corner, you can just make out Shea Stadium." Bob Hollister was not
impressed. "Humpf," he said, "it looks bigger on television."
In spite of our lightheartedness we had not forgotten Willie up there in the
hearse ahead, but we were torn between the solemnity of the occasion and the
shifting scene about us. The tragic day was mixed with the spice of being in
a strange town. None of us got out much anymore, and I know for a fact Lotte
hadn’t been out of Westlake Village in ten years. The street signs were in
languages none of us could read and the people were dressed in sheets and
pantaloons -- "You’d think yer in Turkey," Lotte piped up. "What kinda people
are these anyway?" Benito told us they were a mix of Southeast Asians and
Arabs, with a new flood of Russians who came over when the wall came down.
The neighborhood held our interest all the way to Greenlawn. There, however,
the living stopped abruptly, and the dead began
"Abandon hope, all ye who enter here." Charlie said. In our group, Charlie is
the most well read, and in an irritatingly professorial manner he makes the
rest of us feel like fools. But his erudition is usually wide of the mark, he
seems to know all the words but I’m not sure he knows when to use them.
The cortege stopped at a picturesque English Tudor style office to check in
and get directions. O’Dell got out of the hearse, his black suit shining in
the sun, and promptly dropped his homburg hat in the dirt. He went inside and
came out with a manila envelope and a sober faced woman who pointed up the
road with a bony hand. She described turns like a fish in the water, with
O’Dell all the while nodding as though he understood every word. "Look at
him," Lotte laughed, "ain’t none dumber than O’Dell. I wager we get lost in
this graveyard and never find our way out."
If we did, we were not aware of it. I’ve learned it’s almost an oxymoron to
say you’re lost when you don’t know where you are, and it’s even harder when
you don’t care. We were six old friends of Willie Monahan, and we knew there
was a place for him somewhere here at Greenlawn. "Let’s stop at the first
empty hole," Bob Hollister said. "This place gives me the creeps." The day
had turned gray, with a lowering sky and off in the distance we could see the
smoggy outline of Manhattan and the murky waters of the Gowanus Canal.
Rolling down the window of the Limo, Clancy screwed up his nose and commented
on the cloying odor of sewage that seemed to hang over the cemetery. "I’ve
never been in a cemetery that smells like this -- is it my imagination --
where does it come from? -- is it possible?"
"Easy does it Clancy," I replied. "it used to be landfill. I think you smell
the scent of history." At times I can be just as poetic as Charlie Spivak.
The road grew narrower, there were potholes, the weeds were higher and there
were piles of dead flowers littering the roadside. We were evidently in an
old part of Evergreen where the dead had been forgotten and left to fend for
themselves. We came upon two men in overalls who sat smoking on the tailgate
of a pick-up and they signaled us to stop. Again, O’Dell got out, (this time
without his hat) and the three of them chatted for a bit. O’Dell walked back
to our limo, opened the door and looked at us apologetically. "I wonder if a
couple of you young blades wouldn’t mind helping us with the casket?"
Ed Donahue and I, although long retired, were the youngest, so it wasn’t
surprising that O’Dell looked at both of us in turn. "We have a rolling
cart," he said, "but we can’t get it up the hill through these weeds. It’s
only -- oh, I would say, maybe forty yards at the most."
Lotte can barely walk, what with her bad back and all, Bob Hollister has a
bad heart, Charlie Spivak is literary, and pales at the suggestion of labor.
Clancy is too short. So with Lillie, her daughter and Father Stan standing
by, the three drivers, Donahue and I dragged Willie out of the hearse and
started up the hill to the grave site. O’Dell led the way, pointing with a
handful of long stemmed roses and warning us of the bad footing. The forty
yards turned out to be more like a hundred and forty and we had to stop once
to rest and get a better grip on the cheap plastic handles on Willie’s
E-cono-style casket. As we got there one of the drivers breathed a sigh of
relief and mumbled something under his breath about the dead getting heavier
every year.
The service was short. Lillie, dry eyed and restless, kept looking at her
watch, and Lotte, unable to stand, sat on a nearby grave. She folded both
hands over the top of her cane and rested her chin on the horse’s head
handle, seemingly lost in thought. It was plain to see we were giving Willie
short shrift, as though he was a tiresome guest who had overstayed his
welcome. We each threw a rose from O’Dell’s bouquet into the open grave and
Father Stan brought up the traveling analogy again -- about Willie waiting
for us at the other end of the rainbow, so to speak. He might have gone on
longer except for the cloying odor of garbage and the approach of the men
with the shovels.
We left Willie up on the hill and made our way as quickly as we could down
the weedy path again. Lotte required a lot of assistance on the way down, and
she let go with a string of recrimination concerning the inconsiderate places
some people choose to bury their dead -- this was spoken loudly enough for
Lillie to hear. The workmen stayed behind with their shovels and watched us
go. They mercifully waited for us to get out of earshot before they shoveled
Willie in, for there is nothing so final as the sound of dirt on a coffin
lid; a sobering sound which puts the lie to vanity and wishful thinking.
We got Lotte in the front seat again. Her backside was covered with burrs
from sitting on the grave next to the Monahan plot, but no one bothered to
tell her. "Let sleeping dogs lie," Charlie said. Our spirits lifted somewhat
on the ride back to Westlake Village and I was reminded of the mood changes
in New Orleans funerals where it’s blues going out and rag time coming home.
"It ain’t gonna be the same without Willie," Bob Hollister said.
Donahue had been staring out the window and jiggling his left leg to keep it
loose. "That’s the trouble with you, Bob -- y’always want things to be the
same. Things are never the same, even if Willie was here now it wouldn’t be
the same." He slapped his leg with exasperation. "Damn arthuritis! Gotta keep
that leg movin’ all the time lessen it stiffs up on me." I suspected that Ed
Donahue’s arthritis was triggered by thirst. Too long away from the Hollow
Leg Saloon and the solemnity of the day had put us all on edge, I noticed my
leg was jiggling as well and Charlie Spivak was drumming his fingers on the
window. Lotte, even more irritable than usual asked the driver, "Is the
traffic always so bad out here? How long before we get back?"
"Won’t take long, lady." Benito consulted the digital clock on the dash. "We
should be back by two or so."
"Seems t’me you could break off from this dumb procession and make better
time."
"It’s a funeral, ma’am, we gotta stick together."
"Horseshit," she replied, and stared gloomily out the window.
I looked at my watch, it was only one o’clock. "What will we do with the rest
of our day?" I asked. There was no answer -- but all eyes were turned on
Clancy, even Lotte turned around in her seat to look back at him. We all
agreed that it was too late to start anything and too early to call it a day.
He responded admirably -- he thought it might be a good idea to open The
Hollow Leg for the afternoon. "Just give me a half hour to air the place out,
okay? It gets a little rank in there overnight."
Good to his word, Benito pulled up to the church at 2 p.m.. "Not including
the gratuity, and bearin’ in mind it’s a half day job, it’ll be $135." He
paused a moment and added, "We don’t take plastic or personal checks -- no
hard feelin’s."
"Well, let’s see now," said Clancy, who by the nature of his vocation, is
well versed in division and multiplication, "Let’s call that $150, including
the gratuity, as you call it. As I see it that would be $25 apiece, unless,
of course, we take the gentlemanly approach."
"What’s the gentlemanly approach?" I asked.
"We cough up for Lotte," he explained.
"What the hell!" Says Bob Hollister, a champion of women’s rights. "Who says
we gotta pay for Lotte? She’s got as much money as any of us."
"Damn right," says Lotte. "I don’t wanna be beholden to nobody, specially
Hollister."
"Fifteen bucks is a pretty small tip," said Benito, whose jowls were growing
darker moment by moment.
"It ain’t so bad," says Clancy. "Besides, I had in mind you’d drive us over
to The Hollow Leg, and I’d stand us all to a drink or two."
We settled on that. We said our goodbyes to Mrs. Monahan and her daughter at
the church and piled back into the limo. It’s only two blocks from the church
to the saloon, (I must say it often seems much farther).
We stepped out of the long white machine and waited for Clancy to open up. I
looked around me and remarked to the others how the mere presence of the
white limo had magically transformed the normal dingy appearance of Westwood
Avenue into a street of dreams, so to speak. It was good to be back in the
warm conviviality of The Hollow Leg again. Clancy lit the lights behind the
bar and turned on the beer pump, then he started the floor fan to blow out
the dead air of yesterday. We gave Lotte first crack at the rest room, and
the rest of us considered the empty stool of Willie Monahan.
"I wouldn’t feel right sittin’ there where Willie sat," Hollister said.
"Me too," Donahue agreed. "It ain’t the stool so much as it is the place
where he sat, y’know? The stools can get switched around, and in the end
nobody’d ever know which one was Willie’s. It’s his place, y’see -- he always
sat in the third stool from the door."
"Okay," I said. "I’ve got an idea. From now on s’posin’ none of us ever sits
in the third stool from the door. Wouldn’t that be a way of rememberin’
Willy?"
"I think you guys are sick," said Benito the driver. Clancy had just stood
the entire crowd to a round of ‘whatever.’ The mellowness had yet to set in,
that wouldn’t come until the third round or so, but it flitted across my mind
that perhaps Benito was not as hardened to Clancy’s bourbon as the rest of
us. He seemed to have passed through mellow to sullen before he got the first
round down. It went on like this throughout the rest of the afternoon. Each
of us in turn would bring up Willie and what he was and how much we’d miss
him. This was his place, The Hollow Leg Saloon -- and I guess he was more
honored and respected here than he was at home. It was our duty as his
friends, to keep his memory alive.
We tried to convince Benito of our undying love for Willie, but he would have
none of it. He was a lonely man and a fellowship of compassionate drinkers
was foreign to him. "You won’t find no drunks in the Mafia!" he reminded us
bluntly. He seemed to grow more muddled in his thinking and more erratic in
his movements as the afternoon progressed. "Look around you," we beseeched
him. "The Hollow Leg is not like other saloons. It is the meeting place of a
rare and matchless people. We mean more to each other than family and
friends. Even the church cannot drive a wedge between us." Charlie Spivak for
once hit the nail on the head.
But Benito sank deeper and deeper into melancholy -- "You guys -- and you
too, lady . . . you’re sick. This is nothing but a bar fulla drunks. Each an
ev’ry one-of-ya’s a lush. I’m gettin’ the fuck outta here before I go crazy
too." He looked more like Jean LaFitte the pirate than the driver of a
stretch limousine, and in the late afternoon light his blue black jowls lent
him a forbidding appearance. "I gotta gig tonight," he mumbled, "I can’t hang
around here in this crummy bar." He pulled back the sleeve of his uniform to
look at his watch, drawing his arm in and out to focus his eyes on the time.
Without so much as standing us to a round of drinks or thanking us for the
ones he got from us, Benito slid off the stool and got his cap from the peg
on the wall. He set it at a jaunty angle and smiled at us with a set of
almost blindingly white teeth. "Thanks fer nothin’, you guys -- it’s been a
hell of an afternoon."
"A bit of a wahoo, I believe," I noted as he headed for the door.
"A Philistine," said Charlie.
"Looked Italian to me," said Lotte.
Before we could comment further, Benito had settled himself in the giant
white machine outside and without so much as a wave of the hand, drove
smoothly off for the intersection of Westwood and Pine. At that point there was
a c-r-r-u-m-m-p. Not a crash, mind you. Not a bang. A c-r-r-u-m-m-p.
I walked to the door and looked out, then came back and settled myself at the
bar again.
"It was him, right?" asked Bob Hollister.
"Yes," I said. "Didn’t see the stop sign at the corner. Went into the side of
the M-22 bus for Castle Gardens."
"Hell of a thing," remarked Ed Donahue. "Poor guy could lose his license for
DWI." He raised his glass and closed one eye, sighting through the amber
fluid at the yellow ceiling light above our heads. "A man should not drink
when he drives -- I gave up drivin’ a long time ago."
I tossed off the last of my drink and turned the glass upside down on the
bar. "That’s it for me, Clancy. As the man said, it’s been a hell of an
afternoon." My companions were deep in thought -- thoughts of the spirit --
enhanced by the amber spirits of barley and malt. It occurred to me that I
should say something of consequence rather than the usual, "see y'later boys
-- you too, Lotte," but I couldn't think of anything. It's not easy to think
of something to say when life is through with you -- before you're through
with life.
Part 3 - Odd Man In (Click to go to Part 1, Part 2)
Willie was dead
a day short of two months and not yet out of our minds. We never let a day go
by at the Hollow Leg Saloon without the mention of his name, nor did any of
us forget the promise we made never to sit on the second stool from the door.
There were a few
among us who considered erecting a plaque in his name to hang by the coat tree,
and we even went so far as to leave a jar on the bar with a coin slot in the
top to collect money for a suitable memorial. A noble thought, and had we been
more dedicated to the project Im sure it would have been done by now,
but a casual glance inside the jar reveals more copper than silver. We are obviously
more dedicated to the drinkers life than to to the memory of one who has
passed on -- it is why we are here in the first place, so we take consolation
in the fact that had it been one of us, Willie would be just as remiss as we
are.
I dont want
to leave the impression that we are maudlin in our grief. Our mention of his
name is always spiked with humor; something he might have said or done that
never fails to bring a chuckle of remembrance and a toast all around. It always
ends with a ....
Gee, I sure
miss Willie.
Yeah, me
too.
But thats
as far as it goes, and when you consider that most of us have reached the age
when faces and names are soon forgotten, Willie could not have asked for more,
at least not from such as us in the Hollow Leg Saloon.
We have better
things to do than mourn, and we take consolation in the fact that Willie couldnt
ask for more picturesque surroundings than his vantage point on the hill of
Evergreen Cemetery. There he rests beside his mother and father in the landfill
from which he can watch the sun set on the Gowanus Canal. There he waits patiently
for Judgment Day, a bourbon glass between his bare feet -- ready to run for
the bar when it opens at the first blast of the trumpet.
We know his life
with Lillie had its ups and downs, but thats all water over the dam. There
were shortcomings on both sides I am sure, making one wonder why a little foresight
before marriage wouldnt be a good thing. But love is like falling downstairs
I think -- all thats on your mind is getting to the bottom as quickly
as possible. Sadly, we are one less than we were before, and as I look around
me here in the smoky interior of the Hollow Leg Saloon I sense the absence of
a member who must be replaced somehow. There are eight of us now, (counting
Clancy the bartender) where there was once nine. Nine, I think, is a better
number than eight -- better even than ten. Charlie Spivak, our resident poet
could probably explain that in a literary sense, but all I know is what I learned
in architectural school. An odd number of arches presents a visual opening inviting
passage through the center of a portico, and thats the way it should be.
When I begin thinking about things in this manner I know its time to turn
my glass upside down and say goodnight to the Hollow Leg Saloon -- at least
until tomorrow.
To say I slept
restlessly that night would be an understatement. I sat up thinking, not of
Willie so much, but of the gemutlichkeit -- I know of no other word that
fits the aura of warmth and friendliness that pervades the Hollow Leg Saloon
in the late afternoon. It is as though the ghosts of 130 years of drinkers have
come to pass the time of day with us. Their voices can be heard in song and
story and now Willies voice can be heard loud and clear above them all.
May they sing forever! They are great company .... none greater than Willie
Monahan. I finally got to sleep trying vainly to think of a replacement for
him.
I dropped in to
the Hollow Leg after my duties at the Guardian the next afternoon.
Spivak was there, (already on his third) so was Ed Donahue and Lotte -- bless
her heart. Clancy the bartender was well into the story of the difficulties
his father faced during the prohibition years. Its a story that, by now,
should be put to bed, but so long as Clancy tends the bar it will never be.
.... theyd
test the beer every week, me father said -- and an hour before theyd come
hed get a call from the revenooers office that they were on their way.
Hed run down to the basement, see -- then hed disconnect the valve
from the good stuff to the one percent, then --- oh hi there, stranger -- whatll
you have?
The usual,
Clancy -- hows everybody? You too Lotte. She took a firmer grip
on her horses head cane and growled at me. Being a woman, she hates being
noticed here at the Hollow Leg, she would like to be invisible if she could,
poor soul. There have been better times. I know for a fact there have been three
men in her life -- one of them important enough for her to marry. It was ....
if I recall -- a Walter somebody, who left in a bloody huff after the birth
after their second daughter. Then there was a Charlie -- a plumber if Im
not mistaken -- he left his bag of tools behind after a lucky weekend in Atlantic
City. Who was the third? Something to do with stolen cars .... I cant
rightly remember -- except that hes gone too. It hasnt been easy
being Lotte. We should treat her with greater respect. Looking at her staring
into her gin as though it were a crystal ball I can sense there must have been
better times, moments of ecstasy and abandon. Let us hope so, it would be tragic
to think that this is the best shes had.
Charlie Spivak
sat on the stool next to the one on which Willie once sat. He smiled secretly
to himself from time to time as though listening to the words of some long dead
poet. Charlies our contact with the literary world and never at a loss
to quote a line or two from Keats or Shelley to punctuate an event of the moment.
He will roll up his eyes and make quasi quotation marks with his fingers --
an affectation that will someday drive me mad. It would be helpful if the quotation
fit the incident, but it is always misapplied -- as when he stated Willie had
shuffled off this mortal coil. He did no such thing! What he did
was to drop dead in the middle of the Monday night football game.
Bob Hollister
stood with a beer in his hand, it being a little too early in the day for him
to drink bourbon. He was looking closely at the old yellowed photographs that
hung on the wall next to the toilet door. Bob is the sentimental sort and loves
to live in the past. To a greater or lesser extent it is an affliction all of
us share, but Bob seems to be rooted there with both feet. Even when his head
appears in the doorway of the present, it will suddenly duck back again.
These pictures
are great, Clancy -- this one here, the one with the soldier?
That was
my grandfathers first bartender, he lost his kneecap at Gettysburg --
wore his Union uniform all life long. Clancy, while he doesnt live
in the past, cant resist lecturing anyone who will listen, so long as
the subject is the Hollow Leg Saloon. He has taken great pains to preserve many
photographs of the place from its very beginnings 130 years ago when it stood
alone on an unnamed street in the middle of Toad Hollow. He dried his hands
on a towel and came out from behind the bar. He put on his glasses and hurried
over to stand next to Bob .... Now here, see this one? Theres curtains
in the windas upstairs, you can see them blowin out, he turned to
Bob and in a confidential manner nudged him gently in the ribs. Those were the
days when grampa would let girls operate up there. Sometimes I look at that
pitcher and wonder if somethin was goin on upstairs when it was
taken -- yknow? Even now theres rooms up there, yknow?
Gee,
Bob said, obviously impressed. You ever go up there, Clancy?
No. I did
when I was a kid. Before my father put in the trap door and the plantin
boxes on the stairs, he raised his head to look in that general direction
.... it was spooky, lemme tellya. Dark and spooky -- smelled of
mice, it did.
You might wonder
why, except for the spirits, anyone would waste an afternoon in the Hollow Leg
Saloon. The clientele is about as dull as youll find at a senior citizens
picnic and its rare youll hear an intelligent word or one you havent
heard before. Nobody talks of today or tomorrow -- weve taken root in
the past. It was Willie Monahan, the youngest of us, who taught us the beauty
of today .... with no thought for tomorrow. I was about to bring up the subject
of odd and even numbers again when in walked Dennis ODell.
Dennis is our
mortician, and since his father died, the sole proprietor of ODells
Funeral Home. It was the very same ODell who mortified and buried Willie,
and barring natural or man-made disasters, will bury all of us. I couldnt
remember him dropping in the Hollow Leg in the afternoon, but then, Im
wasnt there as often as the rest of the crowd. It occurred to me that
Dennis ODell might be a logical contender for our odd man in. He was Willies
age and best of all he had a steady job -- which can be of some importance when
the Social Security checks are overdue and a man has a dry throat.
Dennis was a small
man, smaller even than Willie was. Clancys bar stools were a stretch for
him and he had to step on the bottom rung before his rump cleared the cushion.
He did it with a minimum of fuss -- Ill give him that. He was pale in
complexion and somewhat scarce of hair. Were it not for the fact his eyes were
always open, he resembled many of his clients, and when speaking to him you
got the impression he was studying your face for future reference. I have never
seen him in anything but a black suit, white shirt and a tie of celestial blue
-- he has no leisure time and I think he dresses for work day and night.
I tried to break
the ice. Its good to see you Dennis. May I congratulate you on the
job you did on Willie, he never looked better.
He turned to look
at me and smiled. Mr. Monahan was a textbook subject, ODell
refers to the dead as Mr. or Mrs., Pull up a stool, he said, what
are you drinking?
I held up my beer
as evidence. Just a beer, Dennis. I have to get back to the paper.
ODell is one of our steady advertisers. Its rare to see you
here, Dennis.
Both slumber
rooms are empty.
Ah, well,
I observed, winters coming. Then I thought when winter did
come we probably wouldnt see much of him and perhaps the consideration
of Dennis ODell as the odd man in wouldnt be a good idea after all.
He looked at me sadly and shrugged a bit as he contemplated the head on his
beer.
Yes, I suppose
it is -- I love it here at Clancys place, you know. He made an all-inclusive
gesture with his hand which then found its way to his glass as though it had
eyes of its own. He lifted his beer in salute to the Hollow Leg Saloon and then
drained it down. He reached under his coat to get a handkerchief from his rear
pants pocket and gently dabbed his lips. If I could, he said, I
would spend more time here. He looked at me joylessly. The life
I lead -- there is nothing sadder than watching them go one by one -- no one
to share it with.
I never
thought of it that way.
No one does,
no one. The dead dont care you know. It doesnt matter to them --
it matters to us. He grew more animated. Willie could have been
a Saint or a potted palm. Theres no difference once youre gone.
I thought to myself,
Dennis is as nutty as a fruit cake, but hes certainly the right man for
the odd man in. Think of the discussions we could have! The mysteries of life
and death.
Its
for the living, he went on. Whether he parted his hair on the left
or the right -- whether he should wear his glasses. Think about it a minute.
He signaled to Clancy for another round. Give me one Goddamn good reason
why
a dead man needs glasses!
It might
help if you leave the eyes open .... I ventured. He looked at me as though
I had lost my mind, then he turned and looked at the bottles on display behind
the bar.
Its
too much for one man, he said quietly. Do you know Im 53 years
old and Ive never been married -- I have no heirs -- at times like these
when theres no one stretched out in the slumber room, I am the loneliest
of men.
I was about to
continue the conversation when I was jabbed sharply in the small of my back
with Lottes cane. Move over, she said Id like
to have a word with the Doc.
You dont
argue with Lotte when shes in this kind of mood, nor would it have been
wise to point out that Dennis ODell went to embalmers school and
not a college of medicine. I moved over two stools, for to move over one would
have put me in the second stool from the door which will forever be Willies
seat. I had no intention of overhearing Lottes conversation with Dennis
ODell but Lottes voice would carry in a gale, and because of her
lack of teeth she tends to be sibilant in her speech -- spraying the room with
a gin flavored aerosol.
I just wanted
to tellya what a fine job ydid on Willie Monahan, ODell. I
had my doubts when I seen him stretched out here on the floor, but you sure
know yer onions.
Thank you,
maam.
She leaned a little
closer to him and made every attempt to keep her voice down. Clancy, who was
listening in as I was, turned the television down a bit.I been meanin
task you, ever since the layin in, er -- Id like tsign
up yknow. Pay up front I mean.
I dont think
ODell got it right away because, as he mopped the font of his shirt with
his handkerchief, he stared blankly at Lotte as though he didnt understand
her.
Cmon
ODell! I wanna pay now fer when I die. She banged the edge of the
bar with her cane in frustration. Dontcha get me, Dummy. I got nobody
thandle the details when I go. She began to count on her fingers.
I need a plot. I wanna pick a nice knotty pine casket -- I love knotty
pine -- Ill need flowers, and I gotta nice powder blue taffeta dress I
never wore yet. Then theres Father Stan -- the hell with him and his sailin
away stories -- I want Bishop Jaeger over at the Diocese. She had one
finger left over and she stared at it with knitted brows. Oh, I almost
forgot! A stone! Id like a nice stone. Not a big one -- but tasteful yknow?
It should say -- Here lies a lady, Lotte Gemstone by name, a credit to her neighborhood
.... and .... I got it writ down home on paper, Ill bring it to ya.
The lunacy of
the request gradually dawned on ODell and he began to laugh. It began
as a chuckle and in trying to stifle it he began to choke -- he was forced to
cover his mouth with the already gin soaked handkerchief.
What are
ylaughin at dummy? I got nobody. If I dont do it nobodys
gonna do it for me.
ODell, in
the middle of his laughter, suddenly realized the poignancy of it all and tried
to recover. Sorry, Lotte -- didnt mean to .... dont know what
came over me. Why dont you come over in the morning, we can go over the
whole thing and well draw up a contract for you.
I looked at the
Budweiser clock on the wall behind me, although it was still early I thought
Id get back to the paper and do my Golden Years column. I had enough of
my friends at the Hollow Leg Saloon for today -- there wasnt a whole one
among us. For one reason or another each of us could be declared certifiably
insane .... and yet, the world in which we lived had made us that way. We were
like wind-blown trees that grow crookedly on a barren moor, we are the human
result of an unfriendly environment. We are beautiful only in each others
eyes, to anyone else we are ugly and misshapen.
Have a pleasant
afternoon, everyone -- Im on my way back to the mines.
Hold up
a minute, said ODell, Ill walk back with you.
I was looking
forward to walking back alone, it would have given me a chance to think about
the column and I wanted to forget Lottes performance at the bar. Nevertheless,
I waited outside for ODell to catch up. We walked slowly in the clear
fall weather. The wind gusted up Westwood Avenue and the leaves fell like rain.
We commented on the inexorable passage of time and the coming of the holiday
season. ODells Funeral Home is a block further on than the newspaper
office and before breaking off, we stopped under an ancient maple, now golden
in the afternoon light. It is a misshapened tree, pruned daily by the delivery
trucks that park at the curb -- it has always reminded me of the hanging tree
in David Copperfield. Today, however, it reminded me of the old gang back at
the Hollow Leg.
You gonna
do right by Lotte, Dennis. Shes putting a lot of faith in you.
Oh,
he grinned broadly, you dont cheat neighbors, Ill keep my end of
the bargain all right. He cleared his throat as we stopped at the front
door of The Guardian. .... er, did you know Mrs. Monahan?
Barely.
Met her at the funeral -- I dont think she approved of me, or anyone else
Willie hung around with.
ODell picked
up a maple leaf and studied it carefully. He put his hand on my arm to keep
me from going inside and seemed to reach a decision. I suppose she had
good reason -- I found her very attractive.
Really?
In her fifties Id say.
Some women
have an ageless beauty -- like .... er .... Marlene Dietrich -- or .... or ....
Lotte Gemstone?
He ignored my
clumsy attempt at humor. I bought her an engagement ring, he said
tentatively. It was all new to me, you see -- Im not used to the
proper thing.
....and?
She turned
me down. He looked down the street in the direction of the funeral parlor.
She said -- she said, she could never marry the man who buried her husband.
I dont understand, you know -- whats wrong with me?
It was getting
out of hand and I wished hed leave. I dont know, Dennis. Maybe
you should let a couple of months go by then try again.
Shed
be such a help at the home ....
Id
forget about that part of it, Dennis -- I think thats the nub of the problem.
He sighed deeply,
I just dont understand. He turned his back on me and walked
off slowly in the direction of the ODell Funeral Parlor. He stopped once
and I thought he was going to turn around, so I quickly ducked inside.I
made my way to my desk and hung my baseball cap on the nail someone hammered
in the wall years ago. As I turned on the computer and watched it go through
the motions of booting up, I asked myself -- We can bid the physician
heal himself, but what will we tell the undertaker?
Needless to say
the Golden Years column was tinged with melancholy. Unlike some writers who,
like Harlequin, can laugh on the outside while they cry on the inside, I am
as transparent as glass and my weaknesses show through. My co-worker and confidant,
Stacey Pomerance must have seen through me. She came over and sat in the rickety
side chair next to my desk and asked me what was wrong. Stacey is twenty two
years of age, as blond as only a natural blond can be and is blessed two of
everything.
Smatter
Pops. She crossed her legs -- my heart skipped a beat and a glow of warmth
ran down my spine.
The Willie
Monahan thing, its done something to me. Did you ever have an
operation, Stacey? Its like when somethings been taken out of you
that you know will never grow back.
You mean
the guy who dropped dead in the bar down town?
He was a
dear friend of mine.
If you dont
me sayin so, Ive seen some of these friends of yours, she
shook her hand as though she burned it, Sheesh -- what a crew. Youre
not gettin any younger yknow, maybe you outta turn over a new leaf.
Be gentle
with us, Stacey -- weve come a long way. Why do you know .... I
was on the verge of going into an old mans monologue, but I looked at
Stacey and realized there was no defense. My misfit friends back in the waiting
room -- we no longer had anything to offer. A man more at home with the dead
than the living, another who talks to dead poets that no one else can hear and
still another who dreams of corseted ladies in darkened rooms.
A new leaf
you say? I looked out at the falling leaves that drifted past the window.
Ill give it a try, Stacey -- maybe tomorrow.
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